Do you liike black women?

i think im on the verge of removing my life from this earth..being a black women is difficult. Men see us as a sheboon gorilla, fat, ugly, welfare queens with a deprived IQ. Black men are supposed digusted by us and are looking for a real woman who is less hassle. I am non of these things buy I carry this load everyday. As a black woman I an not wanted, needed, valuled, or loved. Why am I here?